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Monday, June 23, 2008
been quite buziie i guess.. i 0s0 dunn0 wat i'm buziie wit.. ler.. sunday had wedding perf... it was 0kaylurhh.. n gt 2 n0e tat didi werk as the cuci pinggan nyer peeps.. malu lurh seyy.. hahaz.. the dnce was 0kay lurh kn.. thn we waited s0 l0ng 4 the nxt perf. juz t0oh be t0ld tat it was cancelled. damn it lurhh.. binget+ happy.. hahaz.. cz tired ledii.. thn went t0ohh cp.. buy sh0elace.. grey c0l0ur cz black dun have.. hahaz. hu cares ryte? thn went to eat sakura. nice f0od but ex lurh seyy... hahahz.. wateva lurh kn.. thn went hm.. onlined fer awhile.. n he chatted wit mii.. 0kay lurhh.. i hurt hymm.. s0rry 4 the werds i said to uu.. but i realli cnt take it seyy.. u were s0 sarcastic to mii at tat tyme.. i'm juz t0o heart br0ken t0 even say nicely to uu.. i guess harsh werds juz satisfy mii.. but is tat fer l0ng?? i guess nt.. cz i still thnk of uu agn.. hais.. y muz it hppn t0oh mii.. i realii cnt deny h0w much i lurve uu.. seriousli speaking.. 0kays.. thn bathed n off to bed..
2dae.. went t0oh skewl.. laziie to wake up.. cz the nite b4 i cnt sliip.. 2 axious i guess.. hahz. 4 n0 reas0n.. stupiid siia. thn went skewl wit mirahbella.. assembly was s0o l0ng.. gt hair check.. mr g0y ask mii 2 c0me out..
mii: y? cause of ma hair??
mr g0y:(stare at mii) yuh..
mii: but its natural wat.
mr goy: whr's ur letter?
mii: itz natural.. n thrs no nd fer a letter.. dun believe g0 ask ms n0rmala uh.. she n0es about it.
mr goy:(pissed i guess) u tell her to find mii.. u undrstand.?
mii.. yuh...
watever lurh ehkk.. stupiid teacher... i st0mache pain sum0re still wanna make mii angry fer nth.. wanna win onii.. hahahz.. thn afta tat went bck t0oh class. happi t0oh c evry1.. hahaz.. i miss thm l0ts lurh seyy.. n skewl as per n0rmal.. thn art.. chat here n thr wit mirah n lynee.. klaka uh k0rg.. hahhaz.. sing here n thr.. lyk mad ppl lyk tat.. hahaz.. afta skewl.. went t0oh CP. g0 banquet cz hungry.. recess nvr eat lurh oi... met safwan.. 0h ma gawd!! effing tall siia.. thn wear s0 smart2.. hahhaz.. lyk wat onii.. nvr even smile at mii.. baddie hymm.. but hu cares.. i've l0nged 4gtten uu.. bt i still rmmbr the pain tat i suffered cz of uu lurh ehkk.. ghurlfwen s0 lyk eeww!! step maner nyer minahh.. ee.. tk dpt uhs.. thn walk here n thr.. thn went HP. met mirahbella n the c0mbia's peeps.. farniie lurh they all.. thn went t0oh cut fringe.. hehhe.. at last.. if nt irritating seyy.. hahaz.. n went hm at last...
i realii am s0rry if i hurt uu.. but the reas0n tat i tell uu is s0 tat i wanna be truthful. i dun evn n0e hym lurh kn.. he's juz a fwen to mii.. n btw.. i'm still nt 0ver hym.. uu thnk i wanna have anthr relationshipp?? plz lurhh.. i'm tired.. i'm realii tired of guys.. i cn nvr possibly undrstnd thm.. plz kays.. i dun wanna have grudges n conflict between the both of us cz i treasure uu lots.. plz dun thnk the negative((=
i realii cnt stop maself fr0m thnking of uu.. it hurts s0 much tat i will begin to cry.. thrs s0 much thngs tat hppn between the both of us.. i miss u.. i nid uu.. n i realii lurve uu.. haishh.. u r ma 1 n onii sey.. i miss the tymes uu called mii huney n the tymes we shred 2geda. i'm reali nt used to being alone.. seriouslii.. i dun get any sense of lurve fr0m anyb0dy except fer uu.. haishh.. how i wish tat u c0uld be mine agn n always.)=
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Saturday, June 21, 2008
been quite d0wn tiz few days.. had mly dnce practices.. fwens juz cnt st0p making mii laugh.. but cn tat 4eva?? i dun thnk s0o.. wit thm.. seems tat i cn 4get b0ut the thngs tat hd hppn.. bt wen at hm.. all the th0ughts n feelings juz came bck.. i din n0e y.. bt i tried s0 hard.. failed.. i will start missing hym.. sl0wly. i cried silentlii thnking abt the past 2yrs we've been 2geda.. haiss.. i realii wish he c0uld be mine agn bt thn itz juz wishful thnking ryte.. haiss...
2dae w0ke up early cz nd t0oh 0pen the d0or 4 br0.. thn afta tat cnt sliip bck.. s0.. i 0n the c0mp uhs.. waiting n waiting.. alm0st giving up bt thn he onlined. he chatted wiit mii.. he seems s0 different 4r0m the way he is.. i feel smth is diff. n yes.. its true.. he t0ld mii.. abt syazwan thngy.. n i started crying.. n tat m0ment i was t0king 2 mirah.. haiss.. i n0e i made mistakes.. is tat the reas0n y uu are s0 c0ld wiit mii?? i realii wanna n0e.. but did i break up wit uu?? did i stead wit hym?? i realised at tat m0ment n ure the reas0n y i din stead wit hym. the keychain.. tatz his burfdae gift.. haiss.. i n0e it hurts al0t 2 n0e b0ut it.. will we able t0 g0 tiz far if i have chnge ma mind?? n itz lyk a year ag0.. haiss.. wateva it is.. i juz wan uu t0oh n0e tat i lurve uu.. n i cnt lie t0oh maself abt 4getting uu.. i guess u w0nt want t0 t0k t0 mii anym0re.. cz ure hating mii ryte n0w i guess.. i'm sorry.)=
2m0l0 g0nna have wedding perf0rmance.. i'll give ma best yuh... g0nna be a tiring day fer mii.. h0ping 2m0l0 will be a better day fer mii.. kiip t0king t0oh mii ppl.. help mii 4get abt the past.. parents t0king abt m0viing house.. i guess its a great chnce fer mii 2 4get uu..
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Tuesday, June 17, 2008
gdbye ma lurve..)=
i've had en0ugh.. i h0pe s0o muchh but he still dun undrstnd.. 0kays.. 0h gawd!! itz driving mii craziie.. i dunn0 h0w angry n sad i am ryte n0w. u sh0uld n0e mii by n0w ryte... wanting thngs by saying the opp of it.. hais... i dunn0 wat t0oh d0 alredii.. the m0re i t0k t0oh uu the m0re angrier i bcm.. i l0st h0pe!!! i gave up. tats it. crap here n thr as alwaez.. n0 m0re lurve st0ry fer mii i guess.. i'm d0ne wit it. haiss...........-_-
h0piing anthr day w0uld be a better 1 fer mii... n0 m0re thnking 0f tiz.. u cn d0 ittttttttt!!!!! yeahh!!(=
+ [ saBBynaaa. ] + 10:44 PM
ystrdae was a fine dae t0oh mii.. trying t0oh m0ve 0n.. aftern0on decided t0oh clean up ma wardr0be.. thn at nyte.. cuzzy came t0oh ch0ose the kain s0ngket.. t0oh bad akak shikin.. i gt pink ferst.. hehe..((= s0o.. abg t0ld mii abt hymm.. i juz kept quiet nt wanting t0oh say anythng.. watz the p0int 0f hymm helping mii?? he's the 1 hu end tiz n n0w wants t0oh help?? watz his m0tive seyy.. st0p telling mii abt tiz stuff.. i had en0ugh. cause of uu dad l0st his trust 2wards mii.. n mayb i sh0uld thnk y0u fer tat..
2dae.. wake up at 10pluz.. thn decided t0oh online.. he onlined bt thn appear offline.. his making mii feel guilty. hais! i dunn0 wat t0oh d0 alredii.. ure juz trying t0oh say tat i dun lurve uu anym0re n tat i'm faking it ryte.. juz tell mii straight t0oh the p0int lurhh.. n itz juz a n0 use of us being 2geda agn. uu dunn0 ma situation n thr uu r accusing mii by saying tat i dun care h0w uu feel anym0re.. haiss.. wat m0re cn i say ryte.. thnk of anythng for all i care.. i gave up.. seriouslii gave up..
skewl's g0nna 0pen s0on.. i juz wanna c0ncentrate 0n ma studiies.. n getting gd grades.. n 0s0.. spend ma tyme t0oh the fullest wiit ma fwens.. ive neglected uu guys fer 2 yrs.. n i'm nt g0nna d0 tat agn.. i pr0mise tat i'll alwaez be thr fer uu..
amirahhh~ thnk y0u fer all the thngs u've d0ne.. but all of it juz ends up t0oh be nth.. i'm s0rry.. but i juz cnt be wiit hym anym0re.. thnx fer all the care tat u've given mii.. i appreciate it lots((=.. kiter blaja kays.. n have gd grades 2geda..!!((=
mirahbella~thnx fer wat u've d0ne t0oh mii t0o.. have been uch of great help t0oh mii.. gerl.. uu cn d0 it.. he's juz not fer uu.. n0 p0int putting h0pe t0oh tat kind of guy.. n abt tat thng.. i dun thnk the c0nsequences will be tat bad.. juz pray hard tat nth bad will hppn.. i'll alwaes be thr fer uu.. we c0ncentrate on 0ur dnce kays.. lets be a gd leader n pr0ve tat teacher wr0ng!!((=
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Saturday, June 14, 2008
t0o many thiings juz hppn t0oh mii tiiz week.. be it gd 0r bad.. th0ught i c0uld lurve thm afta spending 3 daes at kl.. haiss.. but itz n0w a t0tal of different thng.. i dunn0 watz ma feelings rryte n0w.. thres juz 2 thngs in ma miind ryte now.. n tat is i hate ma br0ther.. n i pity hymm.. realii.. i din expect it tiz way.. n plz lurhh.. father din evn beat mii n there uu r beating mii... hu am ii t0oh uu seyy.. juz a br0ther.. eeww!! wat br0ther siia.. u r juz 1 h0peless br0ther hu d0esnt evn b0ther abt h0w others feel.. n itz lyk.. bcz of uu.. i have bcm lyk tiz.. dun uu realise tat ure teachiing mii ur way of lyf.. n u kiip critisizing mii.. wth! u r juz a n0b0dy lurhh ehkk.. i hate uu s0o muchh.. fiine.. i am n0 sister of urs 0kays.. if tatx wat uu wan.. s0 be it.. i had en0ugh 0f it..
haiss.. i'm g0ing craziie if tiz g0es 0n.. i hate ma lyf.. realiie hate it.. n uu.. i'm realii s0rry fer wat had hppn.. i n0e tat ure g0nna hate mii fer tat.. haiss.. bad thngs juz kipps happening t0oh mii.. n tat i n mirah b0th have pr0bs at the same tyme.. i guess we b0th r destined t0oh be fwens.. m0re thn fwens i mean.. itz juz fate i guess.. haiss. i'm t0o tired t0 cry n thnk b0ut tiz ledii.. i guess itz over between us.. i dun wanna disturb uu anym0re.. it will onii cause uu m0re harm.. haiss.. the hardest thng t0oh d0 is t0oh let you go dear.)=
thnx fer the mem0ries.. ill alwaez remember uu dear.. uu'll alwaez be ma very best dear ever. we r not fated t0oh be 2geda i guess.. appreciate all the thngs tat u hab d0ne..be happy alwaez.. wish uu the best!((=
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Tuesday, June 3, 2008
uhmm.. been few days since i bl0g.. 0kays.. last week had been a buziie week fer.. well tiz week t0oh i guess.. wed.. meeting hymm..((= thurs gt smth on wiit ma teacher.. fri plan t0oh miit b0th of ma syg.. but nt sure uhs.. thn sat n sun will be spend ma wh0le dae at cuzz h0use.. cz akak sedare g0ing get married.. g0nna be FUN!! yeahh.. cnt waiit fer tat dae.. hehe.. last week.. been haviing practices fer the weddin perf0rmance.. kesian bainun.. stress seyy.. hahaz.. but thn it was quite well d0ne evnth0ugh she 4get some of the parts.. but overall i enj0y it al0t2..! Ferst tyme seyy enj0y smpai cmniie.. but thn t0o bad mirah tkder.. if nt sure fun seyy! okays.. i miss her alot!!((=.. saturday went t0oh cuzz h0use.. cz she nikah tat day.. did an embarrassing thing.. hahaz.. shall nt t0k b0ut it.. hahaz.. nn akak shikin kept laughiing.. hahaz.. paiseyy sey.. hahhaz.. it was a very tiring week fer mii seyy.. but thn enj0y it very muchh.. l0ong tyme nvr c both of ma syg seyy.. cnt wait t0oh miit uu guyz lurhh oii!! hehe((=
enot.. hehe.. dun dwell on it kays.. be str0ng.. pr0ve t0oh hym. make hym regret fer his action.. i feel s0o s0rry fer uu.. sorry.. but i din n0e h0w t0oh help uu..)= btw.. juz be str0ng aiitex((= alwaez SMILE!! hehe..
nongnengkuu! hehe.. evrsince i use ma phone.. we hab been msging non-stop.. hahaz.. farniie lurhh uu dear.. s0o mushy.. hahaz.. i LOIKE!! hahahz.. i realli miss uu alot.. hehe..cnt waiit 0oh miit uu 2m0l0..!hehe.. miss ur irritating face lurh seyy.. hahaz.. share l0ts of stuffs 2geda.. uu reallii made mii realize h0w gud it is t0oh be in lurve((=!! ILY!!
mirah o0hh mirahh.. cepat lurhh alikk!! i miss uu lurhh bitch! miss ur LOUD laughter.. hahaz. d0 share mii the thngs tat hppn in cambodia yuh.. hehe.. rafeah kuu!!! hehe
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